Of all the lost civilisations, the Sumerians were the daddies, the earliest known civilisation on Earth.

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As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly. And listen to the dull and ignorant, they too will have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexacious to the spirit. If you compare yourselves with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your career, however humble – it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Be yourself, especially do not feign affection, neither be cynical about love. Take kindly the council of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune – but do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness, beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle to yourself. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams it is still a beautiful world.

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste – and remember what peace there may be in silence.

Has anyone considered the fact that perhaps… just maybe… he was running to catch THE FUCKING train, just like hundreds upon hundreds of commuters every day? Has anyone considered the fact that maybe… just maybe… he was listening to a personal stereo and couldn’t hear the “police”. The guy was Brazilian, ever wondered if, even if he could hear, that he’d even understand what was being shouted at him? Those are just possibilities.

Here’s another one for you… he saw the group of men in normal clothes pointing a gun at him (remember he’s a foreigner, and in an unfamiliar country) on the underground claiming to be police but not showing any form of identification. From any way you look at it they could just as easily be terrorists than police. But hold on…. because they said they were police, everyone is meant to just believe them and do as they say? If that were the case then terrorists might as well shout POLICE FREEZE before they blow themselves up. Now what would you have done in his situation?

Now… I’ve talked a lot about people waking up and realising this is bullshit. Here’s a link to a BBC “points of view” page about the shooting. Just by reading through people’s opinions you can see which people are waking up because they’re questioning why it happened and what the bigger picture is. People who are still asleep are people who say SHIT like Eliot Meikle from Dunbar, Scotland saying:
“I have sympathies with the victim’s family, but two weeks ago over 50 innocent people died. Let’s not forget that. It was very unfortunate that this lad died, but the risk of him being guilty was just too big a risk to take. The press should support the police against terrorism, not it would appear the other way around. This lad who died was another victim in the war against terrorism, unfortunate, but true. My thoughts are with the police officer and his family.”

I cannot describe the rage that fills me when i read that fucking dozy bint cunt mother fuckers statement up there. He/she is the DEFINITION of someone who is asleep, who WILL DO ANYTHING to stay asleep (she’s asking for the press to support a complete pile of bullshit so he/she can read it and sleep soundly knowing her government is in control), and will happily be totally enslaved and walk around shouting (he/she can’t run because otherwise they’d get shot), Bill Hicks style “WE ARE FREE TO DO AS OUR GOVERNMENT TELLS US!!”

Then is the saving grace.. the knowledge that more and more people are realising that the police and government are not what they appear… such as Sophie, London:
If a British citizen was shot here or in another country then there would be outrage and no rest until the culprits were punished. This poor man, who was going about his daily business, was panicked seeing men chasing him with guns. If the police had secured him to the ground then surely one shot to disable him would have been enough.

and Amy, Manchester:
I feel very scared for our future if this can be allowed to happen in our country. Britain has lived with terrorism for years without sinking to this level of paranoia. A man has lost his life here, another innocent victim. Of course he ran away, he was obviously terrified. If an American or British man had been killed I wonder if an apology would have been enough?

I stand up and APPLAUD Robert Pugsley, Birstall, UK:
It is astonishing how many people here seem to be justifying shooting people just because they are running away. Since when was jumping a barrier a capital offence? Of course the police have a very difficult job but it is possible that they got this wrong and as a result a man died. We cannot excuse everything the police do just because of the present situation. Otherwise we may as well live in a police state.

These few people are waking up.. not fully but they’re well on their way.

The official police statement said that this man was known to “intelligence services” (i don’t comprehend how they still have the audacity to include the word “intelligence” in their title) and that he was linked to the 7/7 attacks. If this was true, why wasn’t the man apprehended BEFORE he entered the underground? And by apprehended, i mean, arrested (not shot) by surprise with little or no warning, quickly and quietly. Instead they did the fucking stupidest thing that they could possibly have done. Just think…. LOGICALLY here people… if he WAS a suicide bomber he would’ve blown himself to smitherines rather than be arrested, and he would’ve done so as soon as he knew they were police. So pulling a gun on him and telling him to freeze in a public underground station put MORE people at risk, oh and, got a lot of media attention. In my opinion i want that policeman’s badge and see him face trial for murder. But no…. get ready for this… the police are above the law now. As can be seen in plain daylight following this incident. Just look at what Met Police Chief Sir Ian Blair is saying, that more innocent people might be killed in the fight against terrorism. WAKE UP PEOPLE!! Will it really take seeing police in ski masks wielding MP5A4′s in your nearest city to wake you up to the fact that it’s now a police state we live in?

Now… this may be a tough nugget to swallow, but if you’re living in Britain or America, you’re living in a facist, totalitarian dictatorship. One which is becoming not too dissimilar to Nazi Germany 65 years ago. I’ll bet you’re having a reaction to that right now. Good. Now, look at it totally objectively… uh huh, being told we’re going to war (without majority consensus), the systematic locking down (police control and fear of the MILITARISED police) and control of the population through propaganda (the mainstream media), the gradual persecution and social distrust of a religious minority (Islam)…. oh… and let’s not forget… the ILLEGAL OCCUPATION of a foreign countries (Iraq / Afghanistan).

If all that is a bit too much for you to take in, just tell yourself “It’s not facism when we do it”, then go back to sleep knowing your government is in control. A government with a chief of police who says more innocent people might need to be shot to fight “terror”. Sleep well, and think twice about running to catch that train.

Stay tuned for a possible lesson 2

I just thought of this sentance earlier this evening. A few people I know will know EXACTLY what it means. When you know it’s deepest meaning come and talk to me! We will have a lot to talk about!

I’ve just seen a film called “What The Bleep Do We Know”. My sister saw it when she went over to Texas and recommended it to me. I’ve been looking for it for ages and finally found it last night tucked away in a torrent file in internet oblivion. I downloaded it overnight last night and didnt expect it to be done for a long time (as the seeding numbers were rather low), anyway, I left it in the hope that it’d be finished today. I came home after work today and found that it had completed! Result!

So I sat down and watched it. Within the first 10 minutes of watching it I had a HUGE smile on my face and thinking to myself “hell yes, this is what it’s all about!” I can’t explain half as well as the people in the documentary / film can but basically it’s about quantum theory.

Quantum theory? That’s boring scientist shizzle about atoms and physics and shit. That’s what I thought but my GOD I couldn’t be farther from the truth. Here’s a VERY brief overview. Quantum theory is about reality, and more crucially the perception of reality, by us, humans and “observers”. It does go into physics and the atomic level to an extent but it’s actually a much broader field of science than I thought it was. Imagine one thing existing in two places at one time. That’s possible. It has been proven in a lab. Actually, I can’t really write now what the film is about because I’m getting a bit of a messed head just thinking about the possibilities and I really need to just think about what I’ve just learnt from watching it. If there is one thing you MUST watch then it is this film. The trouble is that I really don’t think many people are ready for it. It presents such a radical view and really needs the viewer to concentrate on the topic and it requires people to open their minds to so much possibility that I think the majority of the films content will just fly over a lot of people’s heads.

We create our own reality. Everything that we percieve is created by us and we have control over it. We don’t have a concious control over it yet, but the more people that become aware then more people will be aware that they can change their reality and make the world so much more of a better place. This may sound like a pipedream from some new-age hippy and to be honest I don’t care. I know this is the truth, just like I know that I’m sitting here typing this (I would say “now” but time doesn’t exist). I have felt that there is something not quite right with the world for a long time now, and if you read my previous blog then you’ll know that I have written this before.

I was just so blown away that I did a little test to create my own reality. It was such a trivial little test but it just freaked me out in such a cool way. You know when something amazing has just happened to you and you want to tell the whole world about it, well, that’s how I felt when I had done my little test. I was sitting in my chair facing my TV and I had a small empty box in my hand and my bin was behind me. I believed that I could throw the box over my head and make the box hit the wall and land in the bin with my eyes closed. So I closed my eyes and threw it over my head without actually trying to get it in the bin. I really was not concentrating on the action of throwing but the action of the box landing in the bin. I just threw it up not caring where it landed because I knew where it was going to land. I heard the rustle of the bin bag as it landed, slowly opened my eyes and turned around to see the box sitting perfectly in the centre of the bin. As soon as I saw it I just knew and had a beaming smile on my face. You’ll get the same feeling when you get the knowledge. Don’t worry, if you’ve stuck with this blog entry to this point then the knowledge will find you eventually, even if you don’t watch the film.

I’ve just had such a head fuck with that film. I LOVE IT! WATCH IT!

^^ that article is a perfect description of everything that I have been talking about!

I especially like the paragraph which explains what happened to me perfectly…
“Nice Guys exude insecurity — a big red target for the predators of the world. There are women out there who are “users” — just looking for a sucker to take advantage of. Users home-in on “Nice Guys”, stroke their egos, take them for a ride, add a notch to their belts, and move on. It’s no wonder so many Nice Guys complain about women being horrible, when the so often the kind of woman that get’s attracted to them is the lowest form of life…”

Top marks!!
That article really has explained so much to me, and made me feel a shit load better!

It makes perfect sense to me now about what I’ve been doing wrong. I fully admit to EVERYTHING that the woman wrote in that article! It fits my relationship pattern to a T. Now I know exactly what it means and everything has just slotted into place for me. I knew that I needed to sort myself out before I could start another relationship, I just didn’t know what I needed to sort out but now it’s clear as day. No more Mr Nice Guy. There’s no way I can do this instantly but I’m sure as hell going to work on it. One thing which is sorted, I know what I want out of my life and I’m well on my way to fully achieving it. I just have to learn to like and love who I am. Slightly more difficult but not impossible.

Tomorrow is a new day. A new day for a new me. I can’t wait!

Anyway, I think I was hoping that a girlfriend would offer the kind of stability that I was looking for. I wasn’t looking to settle down, or get overly committed but just to have some companionship and someone who I could talk to about anything and everything. My (ex)girlfriend and I could do that, we talked about a lot of stuff, some of it was just pure rubbish and the rest of it wasn’t. I miss that. The ability to talk about crap with someone who will talk crap back, but know when to be serious and honest. I was probably looking for too much in my last relationship, trying to find something that wasn’t there but could’ve.

So I need to do some more thinking before I know how to move on and how to deal with the lack of stability in my life. In some ways I just want to ignore it, but I know that won’t make me happy. If I look inside myself a bit more then I might just be able to figure it out a bit more and find what I really need. And that might just be an email.

Who knows?

It’s just a warning and a pleading for people to wake up and actually realise what’s going on in the world around them.

I’ll explain in greater detail later, but I just wanted to get this down so it’ll remind me so I can write about it later.