Whoa!
Doesn't time fly when you're not blogging!?
Hmmmn, well, I know I haven't written here much recently since I've been busy in RL doing various things and waking people up here and there.
I've been kinda caught up with the server over the past few weeks… something which most people who read this wouldn't understand, so if I were to go into any more detail I think people would get very bored very quickly.

I've been reading a book recently, it's called "Easy Way To Quit Smoking" by Allen Carr, a guy I work with read it when he went on holiday to Australia and came back completely cigarette free, with no withdrawal effects, and he lent me his copy of the book. Now, I've been a smoker since I was 15, and a full time smoker since I was 16, so that's approx 7/8 years of me being a smoker. Sure, it's not as long as some people, but for me, it's a helluva long time. So when this guy at work came back and told me that he'd quit (after being a smoker for 5/6 years) I was pretty damn sceptical, but as people who read this know, I have an open mind so I heard what he said and decided to read it myself. I'm about half way through it as I write this and so far so good. The guy talks one helluva lot of sense!! Basically, he promises no scare/shock tactics, he doesn't play on the threats of what it does and will do to your health. Instead he just really concentrates of why smokers smoke, and what they have to gain by "escaping". This is turning out to be more of a book review than a blog entry so I'll leave it at that. I'll keep you updated about it, whether or not I've quit and whether the book "worked" for me.

On a more personal note, Klara and I have been having a really good time together, we have a very unique relationship (in my opinion), we're very similar, we have very similar habits and little quirks. The kind of little quirks you never really know about someone unless you're intimately close to them and know them almost as well as you know yourself. That's the kind of bond that the two of us have and I really do love her and spending time with her. However, the last few weekends have been kinda tricky, we spend a lot of time together, and I feel that for the start of a relationship, too much time together can be a bad thing (we've been together just two months). For example, she's stayed at mine since Sunday, and left this evening. She's been on holiday from work this week and so she hasn't really been doing much. So she came over on Sunday and stayed, day and night at mine, while I've been at work. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining, it's just that I like my space and time, and I have things I need to do, and like to do when I come home from work. For example, come home, sit in my office chair, have a drink of orange, a cig, check my email, sites and server, do a little browsing, watch a few shows on my Xbox etc. You know, the little things that you like doing. I'm sure you have little routines that you are partial to.
When I come home though, it's either with Klara or we've arranged that I go over to hers which means I don't have time to do the stuff I like doing (whoa, easy there, I do like seeing Klara and spending time with her). If I'm going over to hers I have to do the shit/shower/(not) shave thang quickly, jump in my car and drive over to hers. I'm happy to sacrifice doing what I like to do in order to see Klara, but it's almost as if it's expected that I'll do it almost EVERY day and not only two months after starting going out together.
I'm an independant person, I have been for quite a long time and I really do like it. I'm not willing to give up my independance for anyone (except family (which doesn't include my biological mother by the way)), I know this sounds pretty fecking harsh, but that's my stand, and I'm not willing to sacrifice it. Sorry.
Anyway, to go back to the point I started off with originally, the past few weekends have been pretty tough. I don't know why but we just argue, I think, to be honest I know the reason, we spend a lot of time together during the week (working together and seeing each other every night with the exception of one night mid-week) and then at the weekend too. It's just too much for either of us to handle really, we're probably spending more time together than a married couple do, and that's not an understatement. Then when the weekend hits we have a full serving of each other and then bang! too much… argument.

Paragraph Rob, remember to use paragraphs! Just one other thing… before we got together we used to talk on the phone quite alot in the evenings, and then since we started going out we talked less and less on the phone. Klara recently made the observation (subtle woman's version of complaint) that we don't talk on the phone as much anymore saying "we used to talk for ages"… err yeah. The phone kinda became replaced with talking face to face. What should I do? Lie in bed next to her and call her mobile (which would most likely be closer to me than her) and then proceed to have a phone conversation? The reason I'm writing all this is actually because Klara and I have had an argument (I say that with humbleness because actually in my view, she had an argument with me, in her mind). The reason she gave for not being happy with me was because when I came home I "wasn't pleased" to see her. When I actually got home I was on my phone listening to my voicemail from a doctor wanting to make an appointment with me about my neck. Since she announced that she was upset because I wasn't pleased to see her she must've only said 10 words to me. Then she started packing up her stuff and decided to go home on the train when I offered to drive her home. I was even outside getting into my car when she didn't get in and started walking down the road. This pissed me off. She has a tendancy to just walk off without us talking like grown-ups about what's bothering us (her). Then when she gets home she rings and texts wanting to "sort it out". If she wanted to "sort it out" then why does she keep running home? I still am unsure about what "it" is that we have to "sort out". To be honest, although I love her, I feel as though we're arguing too much, and I'm losing too much of my independance for it to really work out. Who knows though, maybe it'll work.

Paragraph! Yey! The new Xbox gets released on Friday (at midnight), I had two on pre-order, one from GAME and the other from GameStation (the latter had a £20 deposit). Microsoft have been quite negligent in their stock production forecasts and as a result there's going to be a HUGE shortage on release day. So GAME emailed me and told me they couldn't honour my pre-order. Feck. I haven't heard anything from GameStation yet, so I'm hoping that no news is good news on that one. If it isn't then I have a back-up plan. Quite a sneaky one too, but I can't say on here what it is… just in case anyone else steals my idea and does it first. I haven't played on my Xbox for quite a while, but then I think that's because I got bored of it and the subliminals.

So, I think you'll agree, that's quite an update.
T'raa

I would like to bring to the attention of the person "Anonymous" who reads and comments on this blog the following entry in the "debate" in the forums-link-.

Quite obviously this needs to be pointed out to this person as they somehow not only seem to not be able to grasp the concept of an intelligent, well structured debate, but they also lack the concept of a forum and how to use one.

Now I am going to address "Anonymous" directly. You have been coming here for several months (and i have reason to believe, possibly more than a year), posting comments in the chatbox which are blatantly trying to deflect away from my opinions and trying to discredit them. I have told you this before and yet you persist. Someone else who comments on my blog has tried to educate you to the way I think, he thinks, and also they way that more and more people are starting to think, backing it up with documented fact and presenting a debate which is clearly beyond your comprehension and ability to grasp let alone debate against.

You have been asked countless times by myself and other readers to actually write something (if you must write at all) which encourages the education and furtherence of the topics (which I and other readers talk about) with facts and source for research upon which you base your opinons and knowledge. I've read everything that has been posted on my site and apart from the fact that I agree with what "Abdullah Abdul Ahmed Ali Muh" / "Gusto" has written, they have provided a well structured, well presented and well argued debate. You however have done none of these things. You have not once provided a fact, source or even a link to dispute what has been written here. To coin a 'net phrase, you've been pwned. You know that thing that's stuck in your throat? It's called pride, swallow it, take a deep breath and then dive right into your belief structure, take a good look at it and start opening your eyes. It's a shame that you'll see this as a personal attack, which no doubt you will because you're too addicted to the "victim" role.

Now. Wake up or fuck off, I've wasted enough of my time on you and so have other people. Sorted.