Archive for August, 2005

What’s been going on in Rob’s life? Well, please be seated for this shall be a long entry!

For the past two weeks I’ve been living and breathing work. I’ve worked pretty much 10 hour days for 14 days solid (yes, that includes weekends). Right about now I’m ready to drop and just chill out. Work has been busy with Christmas orders, something which I hate. I’ve never truly liked Christmas, to me it’s always been a pain in the arse, the whole idea of it is ridiculous. The “Season of Goodwill”? Fuck off and don’t make me laugh! People are becoming conditioned more and more into the psyche that at Christmas they can really make a difference to the world by being festive for a month of the year, by spending money and becoming more and more in debt , in turn becoming more and more enslaved, and more and more malleable to the globalists. Call me a scrooge? i prefer enlightened. If people really want to make a difference, wake up and start questioning who is really in control of your life every day, is it you? Is it your soul? Or is it the pre-assumed conditioning that has been drilled into you since the before you were even able to comprehend language, the conditioning which is being controlled by people with incredibly malicious intentions? To quote Faithless “Fear is a Weapon of Mass Destruction”, or should I say Distraction? A weapon the Globalists will be only too happy to wield.

Anyway, I got a little side-tracked there…. whoosh-back-on-track-now. So yeah, I’ve been busy at work. In addition to e-commercing my work’s christmas orders, I’ve also been developing a corporate intranet, to enable better organisation and communication within the business. All in all it’s been two months in the making, and I’m wanting to pilot the system next week, so that’s a bit hectic. I based it pretty much on the Yakuzas system, from my good ole days of Live, it has changed a lot since it’s early days and now it’s damn near a marketable product, a product that some companys will be willing to pay silly money for. To be honest, I don’t want silly money for it, I want a decent amount, and for my work to be truely appreciated and utilised. Sadly these things are not being fulfilled at my present position. I’m being paid a lousy amount for the system that I’ve developed and the people whom I’m developing it for do not realise the time and effort that has gone into it. Cut a long story short if I don’t get a raise and a change in job title then I’m walking. Don’t get me wrong, I really do appreciate the experience that they have given me, the valuable insights into the running of a business etc. But I’m not a mug, and I’m not about to develop an addition to the system worth potentially tens of thousands of pounds on the salary I’m currently on. For example, the company I work for paid in the region of £5000 to £8000 for a company to design their customer / company website which is basically shit. If they’re willing to pay that amount of money for that kind of system then I’m in the wrong job, a matter which I plan on changing soon.

So, that’s the work side of my life covered. Now, I mentioned in my second to last post that I get on well with Klara, anyway, the day after I made that post the two of us went to lunch together (at work, not a social thing), cut a long story short a woman who works with Klara started a rumour saying that something was going on between Klara and I because we went for lunch and we get on with each other and have a laugh. Now, if I were to say the phrase “mothers meeting”, I think most people would understand what I mean. Imagine a “mothers meeting”, but with about 20 “mothers” and in a work environment. That’s right you get “gossip”, something which only idle minds engage in. Unfortunately there are more than a few idle minds where I work. Needless to say the rumour spread quickly and Klara and I soon became the focus of attention. Klara and I had quite a few chats about it and we both thought it was rather funny. I made it clear to a few select people that there was indeed nothing going on between Klara and I and that we are just friends, after that the rumours seemed to die down. However, there’s another girl I work with, called Caroline. She’s a loverly girl Anyway, I really do like her, in a romantic sense. To describe the situation I need to start at the beginning….

So, here goes…. I first saw Caroline when I came in to work on a Saturday a month or so ago, the moment I saw her I was attracted to her. It was hard not to be, she’s a very attractive girl, and she looks a lot like a tall Keira Knightly. Anyway, I saw her and thought she was a weekend bod (I only work mon-fri usually so I don’t have much contact with “weekenders”) and carried on with what I was doing. A few weeks later I went outside to speak to Sue (a colleague) and saw her again, only this time it was on a weekday, wow! I asked Sue who she was and what her name was, it wasn’t anything obvious or anything but Sue must’ve clocked the fact that I seemed to like her. Anyway, I saw Caroline again a few days later, and Sue told me that she’s working weekdays during the summer so she was virtually a full-timer. Now, Sue and I get on, and we have chats about life and stuff, Sue fancied some guy she met on a trip and was asking my advice on how to deal with it and I gave her as much guidance as I could. Sue and I bonded with that little counselling session and I felt that I could tell her that I was interested in Caroline and asked her to do some covert research as to whether or not she’s single etc.

Sue came back and told me that she was single and stuff which was rather good. Sue and Caroline work in the same department and Sue is essentially her immediate boss. As it happened Sue was having problems with a printer in one of the offices (in which Caroline and Sue work in) and I had to go out nearly every day to sort it out. Also, Sue was producing some information leaflets and had assigned Caroline to do most of the inputting which meant I got the chance to get to talk to her every time there was a problem with the printer. To be perfectly honest, and if I can’t be honest on my own blog, where can I be? I started to think of reasons to go down to that office, all of them were legitimate, but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have ulterior reason for going to that office. I wanted to get to know Caroline more Anyway, it was around this time that the afore-to-mentioned rumour started spreading about Klara and I. One time when I was in the office I mentioned Klara in general conversation and Caroline picked up on it and asked what was going on with her and I, so I told her under no uncertain terms that nothing was going on. With no disrespect to Klara I just didn’t want Caroline to think there was any truth to the rumours, so I mentioned to Klara that Caroline had mentioned the rumour and that I wanted to make sure that she didnt get the wrong impression about Klara and I. A few hours later I saw Caroline again and she said that Klara had had a word with her to tell her that nothing was going on. Great! Now that’s getting a bit obvious! I tell Caroline that nothing’s going on and then Klara comes along straight afterwards and tells her the same thing. :s So anyway, after that the subject kinda died off along with the rumour.

To cut an already long story shorter, Caroline and I started getting on really well, we added each other on MSN and she asked me to take a look at her old hard-drive which was damaged by a virus, she showed me her holiday photos and just general stuff really. It turned out that there was nothing I could do for her hard drive but I had a thorough look anyway.

So, that’s pretty much the history of the situation covered. Now, yesterday was exam results day and Caroline did pretty well. She took a certain subject which she was convinced she was going to fail, I however, was more optimistic and said she would pass it. So we decided to have a wee bet, if she failed I’d give her a tenner, and if she passed she’d give me a tenner. Anyway, it turned out that she failed, but it was no big deal because it wasn’t a subject that she was interested in, or needed to get into Uni. So I owe her a tenner. BUT, a few days ago I had an idea about putting some roses in her staff room locker to wish her good luck with her results, but after the bet we placed I decided to hold-fire to see who won the bet. So, today (Thursday) after work I stopped off at Tesco to get some things and as I was walking in there was this big flower display and like a big flashing light there was a bouquet of a dozen red roses shining at me, the last bouquet of roses on the stand!! Now, I couldn’t have created my reality any better than that! I had had the thought of putting roses in her locker to congratulate her on her results, and here, right in front of me was the first step of the plan I was intending on carrying out. I seriously love my Tesco trips sometimes! As I was walking towards the cards section of Tesco, to get a congratualtions card, I see someone I work with. They asked me who the flowers were for and I just said “oooo, just a certain someone” and that was that. Perfect! (you’ll find out why this is perfect in a bit… just stay with me a little while longer!)

So, here’s the plan, I’m going to put the roses and card in Caroline’s locker tomorrow, before lunch. I’m just going to write in the card that I thought about giving her the tenner but I thought she’d like the roses more. So she’ll come into the staff room at lunch, open her locker and find the flowers and card. Hopefully it’ll be a nice surprise, and will brighten her day, I love brightening people’s days! This is just one of those things that I need confirmation from someone that I’m doing the right thing and not being a complete idiot in my own romantisied world, so I gave Klara a call and told her of my plan. She was in full support and went over every detail of it. Klara’s great like that, she gave me the female perspective that I needed and made a few suggestions. I asked her if I should leave the Tesco’s Finest cover on them, she said yes because otherwise it would look like I’d gone especially to a florist and made too much of an effort, but then I said I’d take it off because otherwise it’d look like I hadn’t made enough of an effort. Then (think back a bit) I remembered that I’d seen someone who I work with in Tesco (who happens to work in the same department as Caroline) and realised that she’d mention to her that she’d seen me in Tesco buying those flowers. Mini-circle of reality creation complete!

So, that’s what’s been happening in my life since my last entry! Quite exciting eh? Nah? Ah well, you just wasted ten minutes reading a boring blog entry! Create your reality better!

I’ll keep my blog updated with developments be they good or bad.
‘Till next time, take care of yourself and your soul!